December 23, 2009

Grammie is coming to town!

My mom is on the road, headed North to see me and the chitlins! We are excited! This is the first time she has seen my place. It is also been 2 years since she was here last. December 2008 we had a couple feet of snow and the roads were awful and she was not able to make it for Christmas.
I really like that she drives up here to see us. This will be a different Christmas for us all, but with my mom here, and several good bottles of wine, I know I will make it through.
Merry Christmas to you and yours.

December 21, 2009

I figure it's only once a year, so why not? Thank to Noodleroux, I am playing along!

1. Have you started your Christmas shopping? Started and finished on this past Friday!

2. Tell me about your special traditions: We eat M&M's for breakfast while we open stockings and presents on Christmas morning. We have a special glass sleigh that we put them in.

3. When do you put up your tree? Whenever I get around to it.

4. Are you a Black Friday shopper? With the exception of this year, YES!!!! Love to do it, crowds and all.

5. Do you travel at Christmas or stay home? I stay home and my mom comes to me.

6. What is your funniest Christmas memory? Too many good ones to pick from.....

7. What is your favorite Christmas movie of all time? It's A Wonderful Life

8. Do you do your own Christmas baking? What is your favorite treat? I really don't like to bake cookies but I like to make treats! I like to make Caramel Squares (made from cereal) and a spicy chex mix.

9. Fake or real tree? For the first time in my life I have a fake tree.

10. What day does the actual panic set in to get it all done? Around December 15th.....

11. Are you still wrapping presents on Christmas Eve? No. I am impatiently waiting for the kids to go to bed so I can fill their stockings......

12. What is your favorite family fun time at Christmas? Hometown Christmas Parade.

13. What Christmas craft do you like best? Cards...... I usually make my own.

14. Christmas music, yes or no? And if yes, what is your favorite song? Yes, yes yes to Christmas Music. Although, especially when you are out shopping, it can get a little old as it seems every store has the same cd they play over and over and over again. Favorite song, "All I want for Christmas is you" by Mariah Carey.

15. When do you plan to finish all your shopping? Done, done and done!

16. Do you know the names of all of Santa’s reindeer {without googling it}? Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen. And do you recalllllll the most famous reindeer of all? Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer.

17. When do you take down your Christmas tree? New Year's Day, or there abouts. Depends on the hangover.

18. Hardest person to buy for? My boss.

19. Easiest person to buy for? My daughter.

20. Angel on the tree top or a star? Neither. I have a sparkly white snowflake.

21. Most annoying thing about this time of year? Other people in the store. Don't they know I am coming shopping and to get out of my way?

22. What do you want for Christmas? A coffee grinder.

C'mon ... you know you wanna play along. Copy and paste the questions into your blog ... then spread some Christmas cheer by leaving a link back to Heather, the originator of this meme. She’ll even go back and add your link to the list if you participate.

December 18, 2009

7th Annual Cookie Exchange

Every year, the ladies from the hood host a cookie and ornament exchange. As it has grown over the last several years, so has the amount of cookies you have to bring! It started out with 5 dozen and this year graduated to 8-10 dozen cookies!!!
Don't they look wonderful?
First we eat! Everyone brings a dish to share and we sit around and gab. Then comes the highly competitive ornament exchange. After you draw your number the "stealing and swapping" commence! Here is the beauty I got to take home this year:

Mind you, this ornament was opened by the 5th pic and I called it as soon as I saw it. Had to have it, coveted it in fact! I made it known to all attendees that this ornament was MINE. Mine, mine, mine, mine, mine.......... (seen Finding Nemo?) :)

After we have stuffed ourselves silly and everyone has an ornament, you grab your container and circle the tables to fill up with those yummy cookies! It is a lot of fun, and even though I am not a baker (visual of my cursing and wondering why I do this every year) in the end it is all worth it!

Here are some shots from the crowd:

Good time was had by all. Ate 1/2 the cookies I brought home, froze the other 1/2 so my mom can try them when she comes.

December 10, 2009

Weekend Fun

This past weekend was very busy for us!
Friday Night: Lil' C babysat for some extra holiday cash. Doodle and I spent some "mommy and me" time together and she decided she wanted to make some sugar cookies. Seriously? I HATE making sugar cookies. They always turn out hard, you get flour all over the place and who really wants to wield a rolling pin anyway? I take the easy way out and by the pre-made sugar cookie dough. It was not as painful as making from scratch but I know this is only something I ever want to do once a year, swearing under my breath the entire time.

Saturday: Doodle and I head to Home Depot with CHB's other half and kids to make a project. Love that the people's at Home Depot do this for the kids for free. Today they were making a small wagon:

They look great don't they? Doodle and I picked up Lil C at home and then ran some errands. We ate dinner, bundled up and headed out to the hometown Christmas celebration downtown. There was no parade this year like in year's past (due to budget constraints) so we were mainly there for the lighting of the water tower and for the kids to take photos.

Here is my whole gang of peeps and the hoodlings. We had a great time, even though we froze our tooshies off!

Sunday: We lazed around the house all day, cleaning and doing laundry and watching tv. It was nice to be able to do that since we so rarely get the chance.

O' Christmas Tree

So this year my Christmas tree is surely something special. My first ever artificial tree purchased back in July from Craigslist. Not pre-lit, but 7 feet tall and well filled out.

The lights are courtesy of all my peeps, as well as the ornaments. When they heard I was lacking in baubles for my tree, they rushed to take on the job of finding me some. They all passed along ornaments from their own stash, bought white lights for my tree. CHB's mom even provided some!

I had 4 ornaments to my name before these ladies brought along their Christmas cheer! Well, enough said: here is my tree. With the help of CHB, Ms. Em and Moxie this tree took 9 strings of lights. The kids hung all the ornaments and did a great job if I say so myself!

This is the 2nd best tree topper out there! This picture does not do it justice. It is white and glittery and so pretty. The best tree topper would be the Frosty-esque top hat, but alas the budget does not allow for it this year.

I of course have to set out all my Christmas Frogs as well. After reading this I needed to share what I had!

December 3, 2009

Motorcycle Safety 101

Do not ride your motorcycle after the sun has gone down on a dark stretch of road when you promised your wife you would be home before the sun set. Please! Last night Dave, CHB's stepdad, gave us the scare of a lifetime. CHB gets the call that he has been in a motorcycle accident and is in the hospital. She runs to my place, we jump in the car and head down there. CHB's mom is stuck dealing with the tow truck and we got to the hospital before her.

Dave was awake and alert when we arrived. Turns out he broke his fibula and tibula in his left ankle. This will require surgery and a couple months of rehab, all the while he will not be able to work.

Now, I am super happy that he is still here with us and it is just some broken bones, scrapes and bruises, but FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING HOLY it is time to hang up the leather chaps, put down the helmet and turn in the keys before you kill yourselves. CHB loves you, so does the rest of your family, including me, and we want to see you around for a long time.

A speedy recovery to you.

November 30, 2009

What more do I have to lose?

On Saturday night I pulled out all the Christmas decorations. I also hauled out the tubs so I could put away Halloween/Thanksgiving stuff away. I was doing fine. Really. Put up my first ever artificial tree (should have bought pre-lit but Craigslist beggars can't be choosers) and managed to turn my living room in to an explosion of holiday decor.
I called it a night around 11:30pm and woke up ready to tackle the rest of the decorations on Sunday. Got a call from JA that managed to take away my decorating spirit. In the course of the conversation I asked him if he knew where the children's ornament boxes were. I could not find them and was distraught that I had misplaced them.
He manages to turn the conversation completely around on me. "Well, you took all the ornaments when you left." "I don't want to talk about Christmas." "It will be hard for me this year." Yup, you just read that all correctly. Are you fucking kidding me? Who put us in this boat? Who had to spend the first holiday without the kids? And you want to tell me you DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT??????
When I moved out, we went through all the Christmas stuff together. I opened all 8 containers with the sole purpose of making sure it was fair. 90% of the decorations he did not care for anyway. So why the guilt trip? Wait for it........ it is because he does not have any ornaments for his tree!
The ones I took with me are all the ones I have received from our annual cookie exchange, or the Starbucks ornaments from my friend who works for the giant coffee company. And, let's not forget I selfishly took the ones that had MY name on them.
I have given up everything. No, not as a figure of speech here my friends. I have TRULY lost it all. My house, my neighborhood, friends we met through sports, my furniture, my LIFE. I have been more than fair with this man who wants to complain that he does not have any tree decorations??? What did he do when he had no tablecloth or place mats for fall? He went and bought some. Why is this different? Did he really like all the frog ornaments I had?????
So, I did it again. I caved. I boxed up all the ornaments I had, including the 2 I had bought after Christmas last year and put them on his porch. I think NOW I can say I have lost it all, unless there is something I am missing.

November 27, 2009

Turkey Day 2009

Well, I made it. Just barely, but I got by with a little help from my friends. After the initial call from the children in the morning, then the mini meltdown, then the short but sweet visit from Doodle and Lil C, CHB and I finished prepping all ingredients for the stuffing and garlic mashed potatoes, both to go in the crock pot. We were up until 12:30 Thanksgiving Eve to bake all the desserts: CHB made a chocolate pie, Pumpkin Pie Bites and I made a Pumpkin Cheesecake.

One phone call to mom and grandma later, finally showered and packed up, we head to Dave and Sue's house, parental units for CHB. They were hosting the shindig this year. Dave did the turkey and Sue decorated the table.

No eating all day, plus several bottles of wine later made for one of the more relaxed Thanksgiving meals I have eaten in a long time! It also made for more tears than I have ever seen before as we all said what we were thankful for.

For me: I was thankful to have the best bunch of friends a girl could ever ask for. They lift me up, take me down a peg (when needed), and fill my heart with their warmth. I am thankful for their support and unconditional love. I am thankful for my children and for my health.

Hope you all had a wonderful meal, surrounded by those you love.

November 24, 2009

As turkey day approaches, I find there are more emotional hurdles in front of me than I expected. This will be the first time in 12 years that I have not spent this day with my children and I am not sure how prepared I am to handle it. I feel a great sense of loss and sadness. Had a mini-meltdown in the shower today and I hope to be able to keep it together in front of the kids as I drop them off at their father's house tonight. I will not see them again until Sunday, which is not any different than usual, it's just with T-Day in the middle it feels like it might as well be a century.
I am so thankful to have somewhere to go so I that I don't spend this day alone. I am also thankful that SHE will not be with them on Thursday. That would just add more fuel to the fire I am sure. Please cross your fingers for the chitlins that they survive another obstacle put in front of them and that they come out stronger for it.

November 22, 2009

Pow! Wham! Ka-Chow!

That is what it felt like today when I saw HER car there when we pulled in to the driveway. Lil C and Doodle had called ahead of time to grab some stuff and were given the all clear to come over. Seriously feels like I have been sucker punched in the stomach.
Had I known she would be there I never would have brought the chitlins over. They could have made do without. I am not sure how he thought that was ok or how he thought we all would react. I stayed in the car as I am not ready to face her.
I would have gone straight up to the door with the kids had they not told me when we pulled up that the car in the driveway was hers. Can you imagine? Hello, what are you doing here? In MY house, and with MY husband? Missing something? Your self respect? Either of you? She also had to know we were coming over? Did JA just want to see my response?
Then JA had to add fuel to the fire. Lil C was upset about the fact that I was struggling with it and he called his father. JA actually turned it around on Lil C and me! Are you f -ing kidding me? How damn selfish can you be? I know there is a brain in that head of his somewhere BUT I have trouble seeing that he is using it at all.

November 19, 2009

I just got off the phone with JA. He called to let me know that Lil C was in trouble AGAIN at school. JA seems to think that Lil C is trying to show off in front of his friends. I said I didn't think so. Lil C's life is all messed up right now and this is the way he is choosing to act it out. Guess what? Utter and complete silence. No agreement, no argument, just total silence. Hmmmm.
Does he really think Lil C is this way all the time? I told JA that this was not our son. Only a few times last year did we get calls like this and that WAS because he was goofing off in class and took it too far. How could JA not see it? Does he really believe that our children are ok with this? Unbelievable.......... I am missing something right?

November 18, 2009

Last night the kids and I had a very interesting conversation. I tell them every week or every other week that if there is anything they need to talk to me about, I am here for them and will listen. Whether they are struggling at school, having a fight with a friend or whatever else is on their mind, I will hear them out. EVEN if they think it is something I do not want to hear, I want them to know they can always come to me!
So, I sat them down again last night and said all of this again. Lil C automatically thought I was going to give them some bad news. I assured them this was not the case. So in the course of our conversation it turns out that, drum roll please, the kids DO NOT like that their father is dating and only tell him it is ok because they want HIM to be happy. How do you respond to that? I told them that if their father asks them a question they should respond truthfully as their feelings are just as important.
Doodle was visibly upset and I assured her it was ok. I told them I loved them and was always here for them. They said a lot of things I found interesting but I was not judgemental about any of it. I am not sure what else I can do. We moved on to a better subject and I went off to fix dinner. The most interesting thing of the night was right before I set dinner on the table I saw that Doodle had her clipboard out. She left it on the table and there was a list there and it went like this:
1. Turn off tv and sit down
2. Talk to dad about her.
3. Have long talk with dad.
4. Meeting adjourned.
Wow! We had to rush off to girl scouts right after dinner so I can only hope that if there was time for this particular conversation last night that it went well for them. Maybe hearing it from his children will make him think more about the situation and what it is doing to our children. One can only hope.

November 17, 2009

Why am I always the "nice" one? Why am I always the one to give in? Oh, I know why. Because somewhere in the back of my sick and twisted head I think that he will get a clue. Wait, too late for that. The roles are completely reversed now that I am out of the house. So weird....... I feel like if I say no than I am just being a bitch. While I don't mind the label, it gets old after a while when you hear it from the same person all the time. Why do I feel like if I were the one to make these requests that I would be told no? Yet I am supposed to "grant" him these wishes like I am "a genie in a bottle baby". In an effort to be the nice one and to be the bigger party I have now screwed myself. He will continue to think this is a good idea and continue to be SELFISH about it. Will I ever be able to cry "uncle"?
This is so not fair. I know I sound like a 3 year old but just bear with me ok? I would never in a million years think of putting my kids through any of this. Yet for him, it seems like he puts himself first and they come last, yet to hear it come from his mouth they are his top priority. Really? Is that why he is choosing to make the decisions he has been making? Is that why he keeps rubbing it in their faces and shoving it down their throat? Really? My heart hurts for them.

November 16, 2009

So back home! Whirlwind weekend as always when we take 11 girls camping! So glad to have CHB's help, and how could I forget that HOW was coming along????? I think the girls had a good time, even though we felt like we yelled at them all weekend????
It was great to be away for the weekend but at the same time, when I came back I was immediately thrown in to what I wanted to get away from. I hate this shit. There is no other word for it. I hate what this does to me, my life but I really hate what this does to my kids. I am adult, I can "handle" it, but they can not escape from it. Is it possible for him to be blind to this? Really?
Here's another thing: how come he rises above this smelling like the proverbial rose and I come out like a steaming pile of cow dung? He gets the house, the neighborhood, the paid off vehicle, and all the people we have met (with the exception of my girlfriends and family). Meanwhile I have to move, I get the car payment and the look of disdain everywhere I go. Is this because I am choosing not to talk about what happened with them? Or am I just such a bitch that everyone ASSUMES it was me? I don't claim to be perfect but this is NOT ALL MY FAULT. Yet I get to reap the "benefits" like I started some type of holy war. Nice.

November 13, 2009

So this weekend Doodle, CHB, PIA and I are off to camp with the rest of the Girl Scout troop this weekend. Thank goodness we are indoors in a cabin as the rain and the cold would definitely have made us change our minds about the Pacific Northwest in November: OUTDOORS!!!! Wish us luck!
I am glad I will be busy this weekend. Helps to keep the mind occupied and away from other thoughts. I hate that I have to think this way at all. I hate that I am the one still dealing with all this while he is free to do whatever he wants. The loop de loop is still there and I try to stay as busy as possible so I don't hear it as loud. I am disappointed in myself that at every opportunity to find out more info I take it. Why? I need to learn to walk away from it. At the same time that I want to know, I really don't. It makes me physically ill. So why do it? Well if you can answer that million dollar question I would be FOREVER in our debt.

November 10, 2009

QUIT. MESSING. WITH. MY. HEAD. I am serious. Just when I can get through the day without OVERLY obsessing about this, you have to go and mess it up. And not in a good way. Why? Can you be that blind to what this does to me? It feels like you have all the power and I am helpless to stop you.
One of these days I will be able to regain the control over my life, but until then knock it off. Take the time to listen to your OWN heart and figure out what it is you need before you go making a huge mess of everyone else's life. Seriously.

November 8, 2009

Who knew that in a 24 hour period it could all go crazy again? Seriously? I think I have been punked enough times in the last few months to last me a lifetime. Once I have dissected all this, I wonder where it will take me next. Each day brings something new. Who knew I could handle all this? And I would have never thought all the peeps could be hit by the same crazy train that I did. So,
I would like to thank the academy............
Crimefighter: You will survive this. It sucks but it is better to know now than later. If you need to draft any more emails, I am your gal.
CHB: I love that you are there for it all! Just knowing that you are there makes all the difference. Much love.
Spice Rack: Thanks for the different point of view. Always welcome. :)

November 4, 2009

So, I think I am becoming O.C.D. about this whole thing. I feel like it consumes my every waking minute that I am not distracted. This constant obsessing is overwhelming. When the opportunity presents itself to find out more info, I stupidly take it. I should close my eyes and turn my ears off and run the other direction: but do I? Oh no........ that would be too easy. I have no willpower whatsoever when it comes to this. I thought I was so much stronger than that.
It is the little things that really get me. We could be here all day if I listed them but I am sure you get the picture. It all takes time. TIME TIME TIME. Not that I am trying to rush the process or anything. I just want to get over the hurdle that is front of me. Is that too much to ask? I have passed the anger and bitterness and just need this stupid sadness to go away. Seriously. Who needs it? Or to sleep? When did I become so damn emotional? Oh yeah........ I remember now.

November 2, 2009

I just want to say: THANKS. To all my peeps, new and old, for being there. Knowing I have you is so awesome! You pick me up when I am down, you know just what to say to make me smile and your arms are always open. I am glad you are there to remind me that "This too shall pass".
It is never said enough so THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.

October 29, 2009


Seriously. I need a new loop. Got any ideas on how I can turn this crappy loop, that runs non stop in my head, in to something else? Almost anything else would pretty much do.
Then, after we get a new loop, we look at what it will take to be able to shut off the brain at night completely. So my peeps, let the ideas flow. I'll take whatever you got.
Then maybe somebody can explain to me why it is SOOOOOOOOO much easier for men to move on then women. Once that mystery is solved, my world might be a better place.
Well, Phase 1 is complete. I don't feel any different although my stomach does. It was majorly protesting yesterday.
So this was how the day went:
woke up at 5:30 am and could not go back to sleep;
got in the car to go to work and my radio/cd player decided to not work;
got to the courthouse only to forget something and had to run all the way back to the car;
got a phone call as soon as I got home that a friend of mine had passed away;
and to top all of that off, auntie flow decided to visit.
Seriously, today better be a good day. I can not do days like that anymore.

October 28, 2009

Today is a big day. Hi, my name is Jo, and I am going through the big "D" and I don't mean Dallas. This afternoon I will be marching up the court house steps to complete phase 1. Yuck. I have a lot of mixed emotions going on. Probably why I was up at 5:30 am and could not go back to sleep. That is 2 hours early for me. Nice.
Wish me well.

October 27, 2009

Knowing you can not make someone else do what you want does not keep you from trying now does it? When emotions are involved too often we can not see the trees for the forest. So true in my case. I have to pick up the broken pieces of my life and try to move on. The question is, how do I do that? I feel so stupid for putting it all out there, knowing the whole time in my head that there was nothing I could do.
It is like this continuous loop that plays in my head. When is it going to stop? How long do I have to hear this? How long before I can eat? Before I can sleep? How long before the emotional roller coaster comes to a stop? Will it ever? How DO you mend a broken heart? Everyone says time will help. But how MUCH time? When does the pain go away? Will it ever?
I know I am strong and I can do this. This is what I tell myself. But for some reason, the heart is a little harder to convince these days.

October 22, 2009

So there are many stages of grief, no matter what you have lost. So, in true "me" fashion, I had to rearrange the order of them. I enjoy messing up the flow you know? BUT they exist none the less.
I went straight in to Anger. Yep. I held on to that for quite a while. (I am good at that). In there was some Guilt and Embarrassment before I hit Denial. I have said this before and I will say it again. I WANT TO GO BACK THERE. I loved living in my insulated Denial bubble! I thought I was doing so good and I was making all kinds of progress. Yeah, no.
Once that Denial bubble was so rudely popped, I went in to Bargaining. Yeah, that didn't really get me anywhere. So now, while I don't think I am truly in the Depression state (watch out everyone) I know I am not to the Acceptance yet.
It takes time, so everyone says, and I understand that. I just want to be further along in the process you know? Who wants to dredge through all the feelings unless absolutely necessary? I feel in limbo right now. While part of me knows that will change, the other part doesn't want it to get worse, only better.
Here is to hoping the last steps are easier, rather than harder. Fingers crossed.

October 16, 2009

How come when you don't have a smile ready SOME people automatically assume you are mad? Don't you know that too assume makes an ass out of you and me??? Then they react based on what they THINK you are feeling.......
Why should I go out of my way to explain how I feel or how I was actually reacting when you already have a preconceived notion of what was going on with me? Sometimes it feels like running on a hamster wheel. You know you are not going anywhere and yet you keep running.
How about you ask before you jump to conclusions? Ever thought about that? Or is it too hard to give me the benefit of the doubt? Hmmm.......

October 15, 2009

Tug of War

Ok, no more tug of war. Time to put the rope down and let it go. The decision has been taken out of my hands therefore alleviating the need for the internal tug of war. Not that is wasn't a blast. After all, tug of war within yourself is always more of a learning experience than anything else, however with that said, I could do without the rope burns on my hands and the skid marks that are on my knees.
I will get through this. No matter who says to do this or that, I can only take it one day at a time. I will just keep swimming.

October 14, 2009

At War

Yeah, not with anyone else. Just me. Everyone has been there right? Half of your heart says to do THAT and the other half says to do THIS. What up with that? As I try to sift through what is really going on, instead of what I think is going on, I find myself wondering when I will get to the heart of the matter. AND, what if I get there and I don't like what I see or feel?
I think time does wonders for some things, but I wonder what to do until then. You know when you get caught up in the moment, an intense situation, and then later you regret what you said or did? Or you think you were right but there was this or that you would do differently if given the chance?
For now, I just sit and eat chocolate until I find the solution! Chocolate works in mysterious ways I am telling you!

October 13, 2009

Fall has definitely arrived here. It is colder at night and yesterday morning there was a layer of frost on everything. BRRRRRR. The cold weather makes me want to bake. Weird right? I have a whole bunch of recipes planned out for this weekend to stock the freezer.
So, time to drag out the crock pot, winter gloves, warm blankets and flannel sheets. We had a "cold weather meal" last night: Taco Soup. Mmm Mmm Good as Campbell's would say! This is one of my favorites but the kids really like it too.
The leaves are all turning beautiful colors and I love love love to see that! Can't wait to get out there and get some pics of them. Heading to the pumpkin patch this weekend before it is too late in the month.

October 11, 2009

Random Musings, Part 2

It was a weekend of highs and lows.
Some of the lows: putting it all out on the line, knowing it will not change anything and at the same time wishing it would change everything.
having to own up to the opinion people have of me since I don't put anything else out there for them to see that I am human too.
having to get up pretty early to go and sit at baseball in the freezing cold.
wanting to not be left out of the things the kids do.
Some of the highs: "knifing" a good friend's front yard while she was home!
having the most awesome friends and world's best bff to pick me up.
cleaning my house after almost 2 weeks of gunk laying around since I was sick.
watching my kids get better every day at the sports they love to play.
knowing I have great support and will make it through this.

October 7, 2009

Random Thoughts

So here are some questions that I think about a lot. You would think I have a lot of free time. I don't. Wait for it.......
When you go from sharing your bed with your boyfriend/husband/partner to having the bed to yourself, do you stay on the one side you always slept on? I have had my "own" bed for 6 months and I still hug the one side. How long does it take before you starfish out? Do you ever?
How about this one. I always wore my wedding ring. I really never took it off except to clean it or to put lotion on my hands. I slept with it on, I showered with it on: seriously. I have had it off for 6 months now. When will the mark no longer be visible on my left hand? I can still feel the indent if I touch that finger. It almost feels as though the bone was formed around the wedding band. Does that every go away?
This one is really fun: I find that in a lot of conversations, especially when I am dealing with customers, I bring him up. For example: "my husband does ...., my sister in law does....., my husband's work". How long until I catch myself BEFORE I say it instead of after it has already left my mouth? I thought I had more control over my mouth than that!

October 6, 2009

Hello? Are you still there?

I bet you thought I was done huh? No new posts in forever..... well here I am. I have not had much to blog about to. Well, not much positive anyway. It is not like there are a lot of people who read it anyway, so I figured I could slide off the grid for a while.
So, I quit smoking. Again. Bad idea. Want to know what it does? It makes you touch down from the denial cloud I had been drifting on in Denial Town. Not a good thing. Then you add that I have been sick since last Wednesday, missed 2 days of work, spent an entire weekend on the couch and can we say: "Pity? party of 1? Your table is ready."
I want to go back to Denial Town. La-La-Land. Not that I don't enjoy Reality, but when you are in Denial Town you can push a lot of crap out of the way and just be in the moment. That is the best part. Nothing bad is happening right? Don't you want to go there with me? How do I get back to there? Can you?
Until I figure that out, I will try and enjoy the crisp fall days, the approach of Halloween and the fact that I am employed and have a roof over my head. Good enough for now. Hopefully I will get around to posting those pics of the projects I worked on over Labor Day Weekend.

September 21, 2009

Weekend in Review

So, our weekend went a little like this:
We had tickets to Tony and Tina's Wedding. The whole gang was going: CHB, her mom, Moxie, myself, Jessica, Cornhustler, and some other friends and/or co-workers. CHB, Miss EM, Moxie, and I went last year and we had a great time, so of course we wanted to go again! But, this year, the morning of the play, CHB got sick and after visiting the doctor was not going to be able to make it. So sad...... we loaded up the minivan, not mine before you ask, and headed a few miles away to the Comcast Arena. Out for drinks afterward, rolling home about 2:00 am. Good times!
We thoroughly enjoyed the play and if you have the chance to go, you absolutely must! There are not just ladies there you know. Several men were in attendance with their wives/girlfriends and you could see they were having just as much fun. It is an interactive play (read more here)
Side note: Doodle had an overnight birthday party she was invited to, and because she woke up with the sniffles and a runny nose, she could not go. This made her pretty upset and she was in tears when I left.
The day dawned pretty cloudy, and when I rolled myself out of bed at 9:30, called CHB and wished her a happy bday, the first order of business was coffee and Advil. I had been the d.d. the night before, so it was not the alcohol my friends. It was the dancing! I am getting too old to dance the night away like that!
Lil C was to report to the baseball field 30 miles away by 3:00 pm for a double header. We got the email around 1:00pm that the games were cancelled due to rain. We headed to the hood so the kids could play outside for a little bit before the rain returned. This way Doodle could also play with her friends without infecting them AND quit bugging me about it!
We were in the hood for an hour before the downpour happened. We scooted home, watched a movie, ate some dinner and vegetated the rest of the evening.
Today Doodle had a soccer game. She was starting to feel a little better and was excited to go. We lounged around the house until noon, had a bite to eat and headed to the field. This particular field we were playing at usually resembles a pig's pen after a good rain but thankfully there was enough sunshine it dried out. The game was going well, and Doodle was in the perfect position to score a goal. The goalie was out of the box to the far left. Someone passed Doodle the ball and just as she is about to kick it in for the goal, the referee blows the whistle. Time is up. Game over. She missed her chance to get the goal!!! AAAAHHHH Well, anyway, the Bumblebeez won their game!
We went home, made an awesome dinner, watched another movie and got ready to face another week of school and work. All in all, a pretty tame and uneventful weekend for us!

September 17, 2009

Labor Day To-Do-List Take 2

So, I am sure you are wondering if I ever got these projects done, and if so, where the pics are to prove it? Read your mind did I?
Well, most of them were completed Labor Day weekend. However, once placed in the area in the house I thought they should go, I was unsatisfied and have now been in the process of "tweaking" most of them!
I made great headway last night, so I will share with you soon my friends. For now, try not to visualize any of it because I fear you will imagine something much greater than it will end of being.

September 14, 2009


Picture this: relaxing at some spa, wrapped in a fluffy terry cloth robe, your feet propped up and painted the perfect color, your favorite drink of choice next to you, your belly full of good eats, surrounded by your best gal pals and good tunes on the radio. This thought brought to you by: the mother who wanted to kill the boy child.
I got a call from the school on the 3rd day of school. Yep, you read that correctly. The 3rd day. Let's take a moment to hear what the teacher had to say: eating in class, (a definite no-no) goofing off at his desk, playing with a water bottle that was distracting. After the teacher took it away, he tried to sneak back up to her desk to take it back. Finally, it was all so disruptive that she had to send him out of the classroom.
Are you kidding me? Am I being punked? This is the 3rd day of school! What are we to do with him? Some of this crap happened last year and no amount of grounding, taking away the cell phone, TV, or Internet did any good. Well this year a solution was born. You are a snot at school, (notice here where I held my tongue. there are other words that would have fit just as nicely in this spot!) you don't get to play baseball. Guess who had to miss a game on Sunday?
Do not mess with the system kid. It will come back to bite you in the butt. Maybe this will "learn" you, or as a mother you can at least hope. Come on down Lil C, and take the walk of shame, because this post is for you!

September 13, 2009

P.O.S.Part Two

The words to this song say it all:
Go ahead and take your best shot,
Let 'er rip, give it all you've got,
I'm laid out on the floor,
but I've been here before,
I may stumble, yeah I might fall,
IM Only human but aren't we all?
I might lose my way, but hear me when I say,
I will stand back up,
You'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid, and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up,
I've been beaten up and bruised,
I've been kicked right off my shoes,
Been down on my knees more times than you'd believe,
When the darkness tries to get me,
There's a light that just won't let me,
It might take my pride, and tears may fill my eyes,
But I'll stand back up,
I've weathered all these storms,But I just turn them into wind, so I can fly,
What don't kill you makes you stronger,
When I take my last breath,That's when I'll just give up,
So, go ahead and take your best shot,
Let 'er rip, give it all you've got,
You might win this round but you can't keep me down,
'Cause I'll stand back up,
And you'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up,
You'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up.

September 10, 2009

First day of school

It is here! As mom's and dad's across the nation rejoice in this united fact: their going baaaccckkk! The cries of delight can be heard across the world. Ah, school. Grab your backpacks, school supplies and lunch and out the door you go!

Lil' C is in 8th grade this year. He only allowed us to walk him to the gate of the school from the neighborhood.
Doodle and PIA also get their pics taken together on CHB's porch every year:

Now little PIA has been added to the annual tradition:

These girls look so sweet! Off to school we go:

I wish them the best of luck on this school year. They are growing up so fast....... isn't somebody supposed to tell them to slow down?

September 9, 2009

Paella and Sangria

Have you had paella? Well I haven't either; that is, until Saturday. CHB emailed her dad in Texas and asked for the recipe from Spain for paella so all the Hood Hens could imbibe. We also got the recipe for sangria; thanks Grandpa Rick!

CHB and Moxie Crimefighter shopped a couple of hours on Friday for all the ingredients and the party was set for 2:00 pm Saturday. We were instructed on what to bring, and since we were going to be in the kitchen, bring your apron!

Now many things go in to the sangria, but here is the main one:There was also brandy, triple sec, misc citrus fruits and some other yummy goodness. (Wouldn't want to give you the entire recipe now would I?)

I helped in a big way:

But these ladies did most of the work: As you can see, there is nowhere better to store the sangria than in the industrial soup kitchen sized Bubba Keg. Now for the first sip:

On to the chopping, chopping, chopping! There is pork, chicken, all different kinds of seafood, veggies and rice. This recipe requires all hands on deck though.

Miss Em had seen to all the table decorations:

After some time at the grill, CHB and Jessica call the rest of us over to see this:

It was sooooo good! I kid you not! Every last bite! The kids had hot dogs, go figure, and played in the back yard.

After some fun with the votive holders:

and some dancing on the deck:

a kiddie conga line, and games around the table with the campfire glowing in the back it was time to call it a day. Everyone had a great time.

September 4, 2009

My Labor Day To-Do List

These are my projects for the holiday weekend:
Finish the end table
Work on the window board
Hang up 3 pictures in the house
Get the white board and football display up in the kids room
Finish organizing desk area and papers
Take door off pantry and hang curtain over it
Hang chandelier in my bedroom
Look for fabric to recover old desk chair
Think I can get it all done? We shall see. Wish me luck. Will post the pics as soon as I am done making my place picture perfect this weekend!

September 2, 2009


What do these things have in common?
Soccer practice
Sunsets before 8:00 pm
Cool nights
Rain in the forecast
Warmer coats, scarves, gloves

School supplies?

You guessed it! September is here! I really enjoy Fall. Nothing can beat a sunny day, with crisp, cool air and a hot cider/hot chocolate/chai tea in hand. I like to curl up on the sofa on a Sunday with a good book under a warm blanket and relax.

It also makes me think of one of my favorite movies: You've Got Mail. If you like the movie, you know this quote: "Don't you love New York in the fall? It makes me wanna buy school supplies. I would send you a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils if I knew your name and address." Who says that? Probably the same people who don't have kids and have not spent the last 2 weeks looking all over creation for those very same pencils. The school is VERY particular about what kind they want.
Anyway, I look forward to the leaves changing colors, the annual visit to the pumpkin patch, the soccer games that will go from sunny days to a rainy mess, I will enjoy these last days of sun.

August 28, 2009

Got to have it!

So I was meandering out in blog land, trust me you can get lost there for a while, when I hap pend upon
O.M.G. I need this. I ventured over to Victoria's Secret website and could not find it. @#&* Thankfully I will be heading towards the mall tomorrow and you best believe I will be checking it out! The mall is about 15 miles away and I rarely go there. I will let you know what I find. Thank you to All Things G&D, for I know you not, for showing me yet another piece of finger bling I must own.

Stuff I made

So I have made some stuff over the last few months for my mom. Obviously I could not show you here as they were gifts for her! Now I can toot my own horn. You know if it was purchased from here it is going to be good: Here was the example. Yeah, I don't think mine will look like that!
Here are the papers I chose:
Some necessary supplies:
And here is the finished product:
So that was for all her pencils, pens, markers, etc. Now, she needed some kind of photo book for her desk. Here is what I started with:

Now, I had my work cut out for me. Each "file" in the Scrap-o-Dex had to covered front and back. Here is the end result:Well, she loved them all. I think she was enjoying her time with her "grandhappies":

August 26, 2009

It was such a short visit down to see my mom. We left at 12:30 on Friday afternoon and headed to Oregon. Normally, this drive would take me approx 4 hours or so, give or take a few for potty breaks. Well, thanks to the stimulus package, there is road construction in just about every big city from B.C. to Portland! I also heard a rumor about how the D.O.T. was widening the freeway for the winter Olympics next year to ease congestion. ?????

We finally arrive at 7:00 pm! That's right folks. A 4+ hour drive that took us 6 1/2. Nice. My grandparents had also driven up from Phoenix and it was nice to have us all together. We hung out at the house on Friday night.

Lil' C got a call from my mom's neighbors, Niko and Aja, asking if he would like to go dirt biking with them Sat morn. I gave the all clear so we were in bed at a reasonable time so this could happen for him. He borrowed some gear from Niko, and of course I had to take some pics since I would not be there to see him on the bike.

Doodle, Grammie and I got ready to go and met the grandparents at Costco. Then we headed out to lunch at Shari's. Did you know that Mon-Fri from 4-9:00pm kids eat free there? All you have to do is buy them a drink of some kind. Well over the weekend it was kids eat free for some kind of special deal so we ate there. Doodle and I liked it, everyone else was so-so about the food and service.

We had to head back to the house to get Lil' C from his dirt biking adventures. Mom and the grandparents were back at their hotel. We had just picked Lil' C up when we get a call from mom. Does Aja want to some swimming at the hotel? Of course!!! We head there for some pool time, and we do cake to celebrate Lil' C, Doodle, Grandpa P's and my birthday, all which took place in the last 60 days.
(now with a pic of Grandma smiling)

Sunday morning we go back to the grandparents hotel and bid them goodbye. They were driving back to Phoenix and we wanted to see them one last time. Then, the rest of us head for a little shopping slice of heaven. Want to know where???? GOODWILL. I love to bargain shop! You can find the most amazing treasures there! We went with the express purpose of looking for school clothes. I am on a pretty tight budget so I need to be quite frugal with my shopping. Plus, Goodwill in Oregon is tax free, and my mom belongs to Club Goodwill so we get an additional 10% off all purchases. Found a ton of things for Doodle and only a few for Lil' C. More pics on that later!

After 2 Goodwill stores we head back to the house to refuel. The kids eat and head out to play with Niko and Aja while mom and I go through some things in the garage she wants me to take home. I got some great under the bed storage containers, a cool toilet paper container for the bathroom and a chair that used to be at my desk when I was little.

We finally get around to present time! We had: mom's birthday, Christmas and Mother's Day presents; Lil' C's birthday present, Doodle's birthday present and mine!

We finally head out around 6:00. Of course we had to hit the Carl's Jr on the way out! Recently, like 9 months ago, they put one in our town about 3 miles away. HOWEVER, the place is always so packed it is not worth the wait!

Heading home, we had a chance to reflect on our visit. We had a great time and even though it was a super short 48 hours, it was worth every minute.