So this weekend Doodle, CHB, PIA and I are off to camp with the rest of the Girl Scout troop this weekend. Thank goodness we are indoors in a cabin as the rain and the cold would definitely have made us change our minds about the Pacific Northwest in November: OUTDOORS!!!! Wish us luck!
I am glad I will be busy this weekend. Helps to keep the mind occupied and away from other thoughts. I hate that I have to think this way at all. I hate that I am the one still dealing with all this while he is free to do whatever he wants. The loop de loop is still there and I try to stay as busy as possible so I don't hear it as loud. I am disappointed in myself that at every opportunity to find out more info I take it. Why? I need to learn to walk away from it. At the same time that I want to know, I really don't. It makes me physically ill. So why do it? Well if you can answer that million dollar question I would be FOREVER in our debt.