QUIT. MESSING. WITH. MY. HEAD. I am serious. Just when I can get through the day without OVERLY obsessing about this, you have to go and mess it up. And not in a good way. Why? Can you be that blind to what this does to me? It feels like you have all the power and I am helpless to stop you.
One of these days I will be able to regain the control over my life, but until then knock it off. Take the time to listen to your OWN heart and figure out what it is you need before you go making a huge mess of everyone else's life. Seriously.