So, I think I am becoming O.C.D. about this whole thing. I feel like it consumes my every waking minute that I am not distracted. This constant obsessing is overwhelming. When the opportunity presents itself to find out more info, I stupidly take it. I should close my eyes and turn my ears off and run the other direction: but do I? Oh no........ that would be too easy. I have no willpower whatsoever when it comes to this. I thought I was so much stronger than that.
It is the little things that really get me. We could be here all day if I listed them but I am sure you get the picture. It all takes time. TIME TIME TIME. Not that I am trying to rush the process or anything. I just want to get over the hurdle that is front of me. Is that too much to ask? I have passed the anger and bitterness and just need this stupid sadness to go away. Seriously. Who needs it? Or to sleep? When did I become so damn emotional? Oh yeah........ I remember now.