June 4, 2009

P.O.S.

That is the only name I have for some people. I swear that this has been the weirdest, most emotional, upside down and backwards 24 hours of my life. Yep. Can't think of any ting that can compare right now. This gets top billing.

You know when you go to the fair or the carnival, and you get on a ride with the knowledge that if you don't like the way it makes you feel that it is going to end soon? If the roller coaster goes backwards, upside down, plunges forward, you are going to get off at the platform and walk away. You have the power to say "no thanks" to butterflies in your stomach, bile creeping it's way up the back of your throat, or peeing your pants. Why can't life be that way? Seriously. I am an adult and I can not seem to get out of the line for this constant emotional roller coaster.

Yeah, there are other people involved, and yes I can only control how I react, blah, blah blah. Do I not have enough "Caution" "Danger" or "Road Hazard" signs posted on my forehead? Can you not see the "Back Away Slowly" vibes that are radiating from my body? Really?

2 comments:

Shelli Stevens said...

Hon, don't know what's going on. But I'm here if you wanna talk. Sounds pretty awful. (HUGS)

Banjo said...

Just a rough time. It is all going to be ok. When I am ready to talk about it I will let you know. Thanks for being there!